I cry cause it hurts

I am sitting here listening to some music and tears are falling. My mind fucks with me a lot. It makes me think of things that I wish I could forget but I cant. I look back at so many things. There were times in my life where I was happy and fulfilled. Lately a lot I been feeling so lost. I feel like I dont know where I'm at. I feel trapped in this world where love doesn't exist. A world where people smile in your face and talk behind your back. This world is full of corrupt people and I cry. I cry cause I wanna go back to the times when there was love and I was smiling from ear to ear cause the love was real. My heart is broken and its not fair. I am a good guy and I deserve to be happy once again. I deserve to have love. To talk to someone on the phone for hours and have them text you that they miss you right after they hang up or haven't seen you in a while. I deserve to be kissed softly and held as I sleep. I deserve it all. My heart is dead and its sad. I never wanted to feel this way again but here I am. Crying cause.....

I wish....

Just because....

Hey there readers. How ya been? Its been a while since I posted on here but I am back. I have been busy just working and making money. You know that money makes the world go round. I been slacking on my writing and that is not me. Writing is my life and I needed to get back to it. Writing has helped me through some tough times in my life. Times where I felt I would never come back from the pain I felt inside. Writing has helped me deal with some really hard stuff. The lost of my father was the worst and music and writing helped me. I was at a point in my life where I felt empty and hollow inside. I learned that life is rough and that at the end of all the hard times there are easy ones. You just have to make sure that you make it through the hard stuff first. So if you ever feel down and out just know that you are strong and can overcome...I love ya.